Have mercy on me, have mercy on me, O you my friends,
for the hand of God has touched me! (Job 19:21)
In the heat of the summer, don’t shame me:
whether I sit scratching my skin-sores with a potsherd,
or whether I groan at the grievous wound of my soul’s sin,
both are despair-breeding calamities worth your pity,
my brothers and my sisters, listen to me:
In the heat of the summer, don’t shame me:
turning your Bible-breathing words into dragon’s fire
leaving only the ashes of my soul for you to pick over,
a wasteland of your pious pontifications that dries up hope
like the last drop of water in an arid land.
In the heat of the summer, don’t shame me:
don’t tell me to shut up as I cry out to my Lord for faith-healing
like blind Bartimaeus sidelined by crowd-hushers
and dry-bone-theology-pushers until he burst out
“Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!” knowing his Redeemer lived
and he would see him with his own eyes.
In the heat of the summer, don’t shame me:
as I lie in the parasitic crucible of pain with diseased limbs
and the face of my weeping like a twisted Greek mask
(don’t ask me to be proper and acknowledge God’s sovereignty
when it lies heavier on me than you can know)
with just enough God-given breath to cry, “Lord, have mercy!”
In the heat of the summer, don’t shame me:
stay silent like helpless medics at a dead end, don’t hem me
with the letter of the Law, stoning me with rock-hard hearts,
but cry out with me by Spirit-given, faith-flowing fleshly hearts
to the LORD our Maker who is the LORD our Healer to make right
this broken-bodied clay with the least mud of his mercy.