There she was:
I realized she was me
crouched in the beating room,
hateful she, a thing that cried piteously
ugly she, crying stupidly, screwed up she,
she ugly, she stupid, she dumb, nothing deserving.
Dark, glassy the room:
no color, but a stink of loathing
a stink of putrid fear, foul abhorrence
disgust mirrored through the open door of midnight
huddled waiting for the next well-deserved blow.
The rustling of leaves:
standing many a time at the doorway dreaming
she was never there, the she that was me
this still-born excrescence, but now she, suddenly shielded
with the cloak of pure light of the Ancient One, holy,
whose right cannot be denied, his blood the price for she, for me.

Romans 7:14-25 (NET)
For we know that the law is spiritual – but I am unspiritual, sold into slavery to sin. For I don’t understand what I am doing. For I do not do what I want – instead, I do what I hate. But if I do what I don’t want, I agree that the law is good. But now it is no longer me doing it, but sin that lives in me. For I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my flesh. For I want to do the good, but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but I do the very evil I do not want! Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer me doing it but sin that lives in me. So, I find the law that when I want to do good, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God in my inner being. But I see a different law in my members waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that is in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Romans 8:15 (NET)
For you did not receive the spirit of slavery leading again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption, by whom we cry, “Abba, Father.”
2 Corinthians 3: 17-18 (NET)
Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is present, there is freedom. And we all, with unveiled faces reflecting the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another, which is from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
For dVerse: Poetics - Dungeons and Dragons, Sanaa asks that we "play a poetry game called,'Dungeons and Derivatives.' The idea here is to select one (from a list of eight sentences) and to change at least one word or more by replacing it with a derivative. Once you are done, unlock the muse from its dungeon and write a poem with the existing sentence." I chose the line from one of her poems which runs: “The rustling of leaves; I have stood many a time at the doorway of dreaming.” Click on Mr. Linky to read more and join in!
I like the powerful affirmation in the last three lines: “suddenly shielded
with the cloak of pure light of the Ancient One, holy,
whose right cannot be denied, his blood the price for she, for me”
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Frank,
Thank you for that comment! Much appreciated.
pax,
dora
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This feels so haunting and it just strikes me intently. Such amazing, in-depth poetry, Dora. ❤
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Thank you, Lucy!
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The movement from dark to light is uncanny
Happy Tuesday
Much💖love
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Gillena,
Thank you for your thoughtful comment.
pax,
dora
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Yes, we are transformed in His light! Excellent! ✨
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Tricia,
Thank you, my friend. You got it!
pax,
dora
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I really like the structure of your stanzas, the shape intentional or not, I think highlights the content.
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T.,
Thanks for the appreciative assessment. Very kind of you.
pax,
dora
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Very nicely done Dora!
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Thank you, Dwight!
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This is beautifully poignant! I especially like; “but now she, suddenly shielded
with the cloak of pure light of the Ancient One, holy, whose right cannot be denied.” Thank you so much for writing to the prompt 💝💝
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Sanaa,
Thank you. A wonderfully inventive prompt to respond to, thanks for the loan of your poetic muse in the line!
pax,
dora
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I admire the shift in the reflection and writing, from darkness to pure light. Beautifully done.
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Grace,
It’s so very kind of you to say so. Thank you!
pax,
dora
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A powerful story of transcendence, Dora!
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Ingrid,
Very generous comment, thank you.
pax,
dora
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God has given you an incredible gift with words. Love your writing friend. Love, hugs and blessings!
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Mandy,
Right back at you with hugs and blessings by His grace! Thank you for those encouraging words, dear one.
pax,
dora
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Self loathing / fear / transcendence ~~~ an epic poem, epic.
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Helen,
Thank you so much for the generous comment. Very much appreciated.
pax,
dora
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The darkness tore my gut but the light was the much needed balm. Potent writing, Dora.
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Punam,
Oh I’m so glad of that, the contrast was what I was intent on drawing. Thank you!
pax,
dora
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That contrast was drawn beautifully. My pleasure, Dora.
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I love the shift from the self-loathing, through darkness into light, and how you used Sanaa’s lines yours.
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Björn,
Sanaa’s line was just the springboard the poem needed. Thank you!
pax,
dora
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Dora, I love how pure your words are and heart seems to me.
❤
David
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David,
As always, you’re too kind, it’s grace alone.
pax,
dora
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O the enemy within!
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“but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
(Philippians 3:14)
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Amen!!
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Answering your question: I am more Reformed Baptist; though over half of my spiritual readings are by Presbyterian author!
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I understand since I couldn’t do without reading that most famous Reformed Baptist Charles Spurgeon. Gill is someone I’ve been wanting to read as well.
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Love Spurgeon! I need to read more of Gill! By the way Dora did you get my email back about the schedule for your guest post? Since I’m letting you know rather late let me know if Friday works better…
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Just looked for the email and Wednesday’s fine. :>)
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Thanks!
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Very captivating writing Dora.
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